Bonfire Night

今年的Bonfire Night.............>.< 無我份!

今日同事們都在討論....看著大家都充滿著期待和興奮. 往年的我又何嘗不是呢.......
一路系道回想已前每一年怎樣過....其實都真係幾開心~

今年只有一邊training, 一邊聽著外邊的firework聲......不過, 都無咩特別, 也都無咩心情想玩吧.
只覺好似越來越跟外界有點距離.

最近真係開始唔係好掂................................
很struggle嗎?
我都唔知點講....or跟本連提都唔想提.

只是有點不太peaceful吧...

又或是仍然在找那個找不到的'答案'
好像永遠都在這個困局tum tum轉....攀山洩水....卻發現仍在原地踏步.

呢排工作量明顯減少左, 但唔明點解仲忙左, 仲少時間訓左.....真係唔明!

D人成日話趕既野通常都唔重要, 重要既野通常都唔趕,
不過就係重要又唔趕既野先至time consuming.......
唉...成日都講'priority'~ 但就係成日都係trap系'趕'同'重要'之間.

今晚既bible study好fruitful....同埋係好unexpected.
wholeheartedly praise Him, for He is God, for He loves us so much and so deep.
He is the living God that keeps changing our lives. I cannot deny for what He have done.
although there is many many thing I don't understand, and I can never understand.
I can only trust...

priority: pray hard!!

「我又告訴你們，若是你們中間有兩個人在地上，同心合意的求甚麼事，我在天上的父，必為他們成全。因為無論在那裏，有兩三個人奉我的名聚會，那裏就有我在他們中間。」

HotPot weekend!

尋晚...HotPot後...expected的diarrhoea.......更說過短期內一定不會再HotPot!
結果...今晚..........再來HotPot, completely ignore可憐的stomach.... ~_~;
完全係唔會吸取教訓既人!

今晚finally去左fusion worship. ^^ 都surprisingly地多人
無可否認, 呢排emotionally都幾up and down....
somehow都知道係因為咩事既...但要唔要去面對呢?

今晚發現自己其實仲不斷系度pressing down緊某D野.
是consciously還是subconsciously?
要逃避到幾時呢?

總之唔想再傷心了, 更加不想再go through.

討厭...

討厭事事都不順
討厭看到生命的真實
討厭看到別人在suffer, 自己卻甚麼都幫不上...

更討厭心中的恐懼

感恩

呢排唔開心, 知道有人為你禱告, 有人陪你一起走過一起分擔, 還求什麼呢? ^^
發現每次有事, 都有呢位special sister walk alongside with me....
很blessed呢~ thankssss...

今日真係知道自己好唔掂,
一個微笑, 一個眼神的肯定....
都把我平靜下來.
makes me know I am not alone!
How great is our God!!!~

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

仲有今日pris既text真係lift up my spirit!! ^^ so powerful!!
完左service, 去左mango飲茶~ 好多人呀!! 氣氛都幾好, 我覺得~ 

夜晚去埋JPC evening service....
topic係'Does prayer really work?'
雖然好tired...但也有很多的提醒.

之後....又mango!!!! 變左我今日的canteen!!  ~.~;